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Please go here to read my blog now:
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I don't update this anymore. I do update that one at least once a week if I can.

*Wave*

Hey ya'll.
Have you guys been checking out the other blog?
I am cross posting to both when I remember to but sometimes I forget and just post to one or the other.

I am really tired lately. Totally worn out.

Let me ask you all a moral question.
If you knew someone was committing insurance fraud what would you do? Would you mind your own beezwax or would you step forward and report it?
I am not sure what the right thing to do is. I've never taken an ethics course.
I would think that being a "tattle tale" in and of itself is something to be ashamed of... but then again I am paying over $50 out of each of my paychecks for insurance that will only go up every year because people like this take advantage and cheat the system. So what is the "right" thing to do?
Judge not lest ye be judged or an eye for an eye?
I am torn by this.

Think about it. Let me know what you think.

My Real Webspace

Attention folks!

I decided to show ya my real spot! OMG!!!
Check her out here. Bookmark it. Do what you gotta do
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What's goin ooooooooon?
I am sittin here playin poker and watchin some movie my ole man got from netflix today.
I am kinda hungry. Really tired. And restless because I've got nothing to read.
I finished Bag of Bones a couple of days ago. Helluva good book. Totally still thinking about it even days later.
I just want to sleep lately. I don't know whats up with that. My body is just screaming out for sleep.
I've got to work tomorrow.
Then I am off till Tuesday.
I've got another doctors appointment on Monday. I am a little nervous about it because he's going to ask me what I did for my water and I am going to have to make something up.
I have a lie all ready... let me test it out on ya's, "I have been away to Mississippi visiting family so I haven't been to the doctor yet."
What do you guys think?
Sounds good to me.Think I am going to fly with that one.
These people in this tournament are playing WAY too slowly.
*yawns*
Perhaps it's almost time to go to bed.
Gosh it's only 8:33!!

Blah!

....I'm in a pretty crappy mood today.
I can't really say why I just "am". It seems no matter what I do today it's the wrong thing too.
You ever have a day like this? Where nothing seems to go right and at every turn there's another kick in the stomach to let you know just how badly you've screwed up. I am afraid to do anything else today!
Maybe I'll just go read.
I am reading Stephen King's Bag of Bones right now and I'm about midway (or a little before midway) and it's turning out to be a real page turner.
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I just registered for a Pot Limit Omaha high tournament over on Full Tilt poker. I've not played there much I usually play over on Absolute Poker. Every so often I win one of these silly tournaments. Maybe I'll do well here and it will improve this mood of mine.
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I've not logged into UO today. The horrible negativity of the people who play the game has started to bring me down. So many are so hateful now. UOStratics forums has become a place to tear into and rip apart the game. It's not a community anymore.
Not very many people go there to help out each other or to talk about the game in any positive way at all. It's all misery and complaints. There's nothing fun about the game posted. The game hasn't changed. The people have. All the better to insult you with my dear. God forbid you post something positive. You get dubbed a "cheerleader" and flamed to hell and back and told to put away your pom poms.
So sorry I love the game and I love the folks who work on it. I am a good person. I don't deserve this.
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Speaking of things I don't deserve. I lost my best friend recently. Here I was all blind to the fact that she hadn't been being my friend at all. The wound in my back is still healing up. It's one thing to be paranoid because of everything going on in your life. It's quite another to cool your heels and make false statements about the one person who has stuck by you through EVERYTHING. How sad and pitiful am I. There I sat thinking this person cared about me. Just... wow. Instead this person was talking about me, claiming I said things I never said, told someone I broke a confidence I didn't break and then turned around and lied to me about it. Then after all of that got mad at me for making peace with a woman I had been at odds with for the past year. So sorry I was able to finally break ground with this woman and become friendly with her. "After all the things she said about you!" she said... well yeah I did make nice with her even after that. I am no better. I said mean things about her too. I would MUCH rather be friends with someone than enemies. Too bad ya can't just be happy for a person right? Oh well. I will survive.
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Truth be told I might need a day off. I am not feeling well. I do have several vacation days left I might take one soon. I do have a doctors appointment on the 16th.
My surgery is set for August 20. I am a nervous wreck. I think that is part of my mood swings. I am really scared over this surgery. There's just so much to worry about. I need a new mattress before I get this done so that I'll have a decent bed to lie in whilst I am bedridden.

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Ahh well thanks for reading. I am going to get something to drink before this Omaha tournament starts. Wish me luck. Oh and I am still accepting gifts over on that Absolute Poker site! Just transfer to Flutter!!!

Love ya...

Poker Playin'

So I can totlly understand how people get addicted to this stuff. I've been playing off and on for a few years now. Longer than I've played Ultima Online. Recently though I've backed off the UO to give them a chance to perfect the KR client before I log in again. It's one addiction after another I tell ya what.
I can't seem to get enough. I keep trying to win these multi tournaments!! Let me tell you how close to impossible it is to win a freebie tournament online. What with over 3K players and no cost whatsoever people tend to play a little... erm a lot more recklessly.
Normally we are looking for these types of players but when over 2.5K of them get together in one single tourny it's near impossible to not loose your mind.
By the way I am TOTALLY accepting donations over on absolute poker! Just select money transfer and type in Flutter (thats me) and the amount!
Work is pretty sucky. OK Work is a lot sucky. Not really thrilled to be working for a living LOL. The people there are starting to treat me differently now though. At least I realize what has been going on for the past year. I truely had no idea. If you care to know I will be happy to tell ya. Privately. Give me a holler.
What else was I going to say here. Gosh I dunno. I was going to post about something else.
I can't wait for the Fall TV season! What I CAN wait for is having to do what I do for a living right BEFORE the Fall TV season. Gosh I sure need a vacation. Well I am having surgery in August. That will create a vacation for me I guess. *laugh*
Keep in touch! I will try to remember to update this baby!

Inside the Loop

Been playing poker online lately.
Getting my butt handed to me as we speak.
I really want to play Ultima but I am so disgusted with the things that have been going on behind the scenes that I just want to quit altogether. I wont though. That would please a certain someone wayyyyy too much. She'd probably pee her pants in joy to be rid of me. So I will stick it out a while longer. I bet I can outlast her. Speaking of bets I just lost another hand in this tournament. I don't know how to beat people who play bad.

I got a nice email from a famous person recently, thanking me for trying to do some good in the wake of some bad. Too bad this person couldn't come up with a solution to our problem. We are working on it though. There's at least a dozen people involved now. When it's something you believe in it's worth fighting for... or against? Ah well either way.


Work's been pretty dramatic lately. There's someone trying to get everyone fired. Isn't that funny? We think so. Drugs R bad.

I hate the idea of working tomorrow. Not because anything bad will happen but just because it's Sunday and I would rather work Monday thru Friday. My wish may come true. There might be some layoffs here soon. We're all waiting to see what the future holds in that respect.

Another bad player just sat down at my poker table. One or two bad players you can beat. Seven bad players and you might as well go take a nap.

What's for lunch?
*runs off to go see*